Selene and Jove

A while ago I left all things civilized behind and headed off to the jungles of Costa Rica with a lover who was over a decade older than me.  Apart from being a champion cyclist he was a tantric master, our time in the mountains of Rica were spent mostly naked and exploring all things carnal.  No electricity, no roads, if he were to choose so I could have disappeared, melted into the darkness of the jungle and no one would have ever looked for me nor found me if they did.

 

Besides from being yogic in his abilities to rouse the Kundalini he was also a deeply intrinsic and spiritual individual who had something more than just a prodigious penis.

 

Olympo was also an expert in all things Avian, he was adept when it came to creatures with wings, his favorite the Northern Eagle.  One evening whilst we were locked in our tantric dance he narrated the story of the rebirth of the eagle.  Apparently when an Eagles reaches 40 years of age they are so weighed down by beaten and dirty feathers that their plumage becomes a thing of confinement, a grisly disarray of matted quills and tangled down, what was once the source of their power becomes the thing that impedes them and renders them vulnerable because they can no longer fly nor feed, they are as good as dead.

 

And so in a feat of tremendous tenacity and strength they land near the top of a mountain and proceed to pluck their own feathers, beak-full by beak-full, until finally they as bare as the day they were hatched.  Then on surrounding rocks they repeatedly slam their beaks until they break and in this state of even greater vulnerability they remain for over 5 months until new plumage and beak are restored.

 

At the time I gave this beautiful bit of love making no real consideration, we said so much more besides, and the myth of the Reborn Eagle was put aside in the recesses of my memories of that time, a mnemonic chest of sorts that hold transpersonal treasures waiting to be curated when the moment is right.

 

Thousands of miles away on the other side of Gaia years later I sit by my small fire made from cured acacia and eucalyptus and watch as Selene rises sterling and perfect in the Southern Skies, convoyed by Jove with four of its moons on full display, chaperoned by Saturn who tonight bares witness to this celestial alignment during an August Full Moon.

 

All of the surrounding nature is silent as Luna ascends to execute her dance in the Heavens above.  I hear little birds occasional chirp in the dark bushes behind me and crows muttering down in the Eucalyptus grove, but other than the occasional tweet everything seems to have given over to this heavenly display.

 

It is in this moment of stillness and quiet that I come to glean the full meaning of Olympo’s allegorical and cryptic tale.  The myth itself, as any google search would attest, is exactly that,  just a myth. But behind this fable, in that libidinous moment fired by the ecstasy of our breathes and bodily fluids, I overlooked one minute detail, it is not so much the story, rather the message hidden in the parable that must be heeded. Olympo gave up so many mysteries, however in the paroxysm of my carnal elations my treasure chest remains considerably bare, still when the time is right its treasures will make their way to this blog.

 

Under the Full Moon in this moment of divine inspiration the mysteries begin to unfurl and their messages take hold in the empire of my mind. Accompanied by the myth of the Eagle Reborn, I sit in solace with Jupiter and Saturn as the Light of Shaddai brings back what is mine:  an understanding of true personal nature and the need for rebirth and resurrection, no matter how painful nor how mortifying it might seem.

 

Cradled in the arms of convenience and comfort we overlook the importance of transformation and transpersonal transfiguration.  This metamorphosis is the pinnacle of Life’s reason but we maintain to live a life in complete and stagnant devolution for fear of the discomfort and pain that metamorphosis might bring. 

 

I will not lie to you, it hurts.  It hurts when the cocoon of your entire life raptures, when you realise the fallacy of your entire existence, the fact that your entire life has been centered around a lie, the lie that an antiquated and outdated system has imposed upon you, the fact that you might be a product of transient desires, values and prejudices, not all entirely yours.

 

These seeded desires and the dross of rotten fruit that is offered you as a certain way of life slowly enshrouds you, envelopes you, until like our legendary Eagle you cannot fly any longer.  Similarly to our Eagle this happens around 40 for most of us.  So what are you gonna do?

 

Most often we have no other choice but to continue in our dead-end jobs, our dead-end relationships, our inert and comfortable lives, wings clipped and bound there is no way out.

 

Why is it that we try to silence the raging fire that pecks at our sides and keeps us awake at night?  Why is it we turn away at our screaming faces in the mirror, gradually avoiding our reflections as time goes by?  Is it because we fear that we have no control, that there is nothing we can do to encounter the unavoidable?  And what is the unavoidable?  Old age? Death? The deep wrinkles under our eyes and around our lips?  All of these things and no-thing of the above. The transition  into our destiny has only one way, through the Pyre and into the Water, utter transformation and dissolution of all that is worthless and of no use. Death is one way to look behind the veil of change, there are others too if we are brave enough.

 

I can see Callisto, Europa, Io and Ganymede with my binoculars, its enchanting, the sky is so bright, how fortunate am I to be bathing in this spectacle? The Snake-Barer is dancing with the Eagle and the Swan rises.

 

For those friends still interested in what happened with my mother well nothing happened, nothing at all and that is the exact point, the things we seem to think are important, the feelings we hold valuable are just a lie, it’s maya all the way, all I had to do was let go of the things that did me harm, one of them happens to be her.  That’s just how it is, another feather lost. 

 

Another log on the fire. Sweet fragrant incense for you Diana.

 

The Kingdom groans under the weight of Humanity’s Vanities but change has to come.                                           

 

 

 

 

 

Rainbow Serpent

There is always an ‘after’, have you ever thought of that?  What I mean is that we are all looking toward an impending event, an inevitable eventuality that will occur simply because we exist.

 

We make arrangement about this ‘future’ of ours, we try and infer it, try to prepare ourselves, be ready for what we will encounter, with the actual incident never really manifesting how we conceptualized it.

 

Sometimes the event itself is like a supernova, a massive bomb, Enola Gay’s ‘Little Boy’ falling onto our tiny sleepy minute lives, annihilating everything in its path.  A brutal act, an exposure of past transgressions, the facing of our deepest Daemons, and then it is over just like that.

 

And often life goes on.

 

This story, my story, is not about redemption, it’s not about some transcendental miracle that liberates the past, a magical act that ends in doves flying free toward a blue sky, rather it is about acceptance and perseverance, the Philosophers Stone that resides in each of us, a product of the lessons learnt whilst we search for our private Ithaka.

 

In the Theological books I am studying there is reference to Three main principles, these Three are the predecessors to all the religions on Earth; Water, Fire, Air, or otherwise known as Mercy, Justice and Temperance.  There cannot be One without the other Two or else you will either drown, burn or never do anything at all.

Juggling Water and Fire is like drowning and burning at the same time, balancing is an arduous act to master, your one hand is forever cold, the other ablaze, but bring them together and you can achieve harmony, like Goldilocks porridge, not too hot, not cold, but just right.

 

In this exulted state of being there is nothing left to fear or anticipate, you simply ‘are’.  To expect anything else is to deceive yourself and risk expending all that you have worked for.  I liken it to being able to see for the very first time, although you are gleaning from the reflection of a great Sea, an Ocean of existence, if you remain very still and balanced the ripples cease to exist and you ultimately discern your own Truth. 

 

Personally I cannot attest to other personal Truths, all I can do is observe from my watchtower in the Mountains and give myself time to become familiar with burning and drowning simultaneously. I know now without a shadow of a doubt there are higher truths, higher purposes at play for each and every one of us, no one is more important than the other, we share the same water and fire, together we make up the same Earth.

 

Like undulating ripples stretching out into eternity, endlessly returning to us the fruits of own actions, we must take responsibility for the things we have done as a whole, commencing with our own selves.  Within each of us is the Breath of our Spirit, encoded with all that is needed to give us the power to carry on, to persevere, to create miracles and make right that which is wrong.

 

From where I stand I can see a shimmering iridescent translucent veil.  If I look closely I shatter the vision and it melts into the background of the gum trees but if I close my eyes I can feel it brush against my cheek and I hear it’s native language that IS the song of birds.  

 

It’s not a Place, or a Path, it is a product of overlapping Place and Path, one atop the other, to endlessly create this special place within us which some know as ‘Heaven’.

 

I believe this is where we come from, this Divine garden that has its roots within each of us.  We water it with the Water of Mercy, keep it alive with the Just Son and breath the Air of our being into it.  The more you tend to your Garden the Taller the Tree of Life becomes.

 

This Tree is planted in the Seat of your Mind, its roots extend into your very Soul, animating everything you see around you.  Your life-force comes and returns to it in endless cycles of being, one experience after another. 

 

Deep within it’s core there is the Fruit of Knowledge, a hidden pregnant Pearl, swollen with Wisdom and Understanding, perpetually guarded by the Serpent known as Death. 

 

You can see this Dragon at night, nestled amongst the stars.  It is the Alcheringa Rainbow Serpent holding within its sharp Talons everything that was, is or could be.

 

Guarded by Astronomical Events too immense to contemplate, we are the Children of Eden feeding on the nectar of potential, nothing can harm or destroy us.  We are cradled in the Bosom of the Aeons, planted in the Dreams of our Ancestors.

 

And just like that, like passing clouds dispersed by Aiolos wind, the vision is gone and I open my eyes to a field of golden flowers. 

 

Burn away the old

I never thought the day would come when I was going to have to face the person responsible for the destruction of my childhood and innocence.  Those of you that know me recognize who I am referring to, we all somehow suspected the events that transpired could have never been avoidable. 

 

Everything that happens has an action and a reaction.  Like waves that ripple from the point of impact, if left untouched they transform into a Tsunami of emotions and counteractions that need to be liberated or will keep destroying everything within their path.

 

I am clueless if my magickal training might have amplified said re-action, causing it to swell exponentially.  In tandem my mind has also mushroomed in unpredictable and unique ways, unhelpfully not according to the books I have been occupied with either, leaving me rather desperate as to how it is I should react and what it is I should do to mitigate the impact of the memories of childhood trauma and abuse caused by returning to the scene of origin.

 

The process was simple, some trigger, a comment perhaps, now forgotten in the explosion that issued.  Bubbling up like hot tar, it took everything in its path.  All of it came rushing out.  Every single moment of torture made its way back into our lives.  I smashed every semblance of family or unity we had so hard tried to nurture and preserve. I exited that house almost as fast as I could scream the words that shattered our lives, and in a blizzard of confusion and exhaustion I made my way away.

 

The room I had managed to locate during strict Australian lock-down was more than adequate and private, I wondered to myself if I was going to manage to leave it in the days to come and then surrendered to what came next.

 

Day and night blended into a cocktail of dark and light, a haze that covered my bed and blanketed my room.  My breathing deep and hot, I started to experience changes in my body and mind.

 

It felt as if though I had set myself alight, blazing from the inside.  My intestines so hot I was afraid I would be setting the bed on fire.

 

I stayed with this feeling in and out of consciousness, aware what was happening was not passing, some ephemeral mist ready to part and give way to a better light.  Rather it was as if I was being reborn in some metaphysical way, the experience so transpersonal yet so excruciating I feared it would lead to permanent injury.

 

I kept recalling tales about the ‘Phoenix’, things I had read or otherwise observed in movies, but this was nothing of the kind, this hurt bad.

 

I had to empty my bowels constantly too, the pain was that intense.  Towards the end all that exited my irritated colon was just water.  Then came the menstrual blood, a torrent of red agony which lasted two whole days.  This is when the voices started.

 

A chorus of entities all conversing about what had just happened, some scornful, others supportive.  My mother’s voice somewhere in there too, so different from the monster I left behind hours earlier. 

 

I feel like I am going mad.  I know the symptoms of schizophrenia and this is beginning to look a lot like crazy.  

 

As I write this I can feel my stomach churn and my spit hot and acrid in my mouth.  I feel bits of me are starting to peel off in cinders. 

 

Tomorrow I leave to go and stay in the Australian Bush for 2 months to try and fix the damage I have done.  Sleeping under the stars for 60 nights and walking the Ranges for 60 days should put things into perspective.  

Although I feel like I am dying I am beginning to feel very much alive.

The Kingdom Burns

A few weeks ago a handful of red-necks attempted and insurgence and stormed the United States White House in an attempt to take senators hostage and perhaps kill some of them.  They were spurred on by the then 45th President of the United States Donald Trump.  Things are starting to stir in the Kingdom. 

 

The Wheel of Fortune revolves, as does the Chariot, and along with great villains we are witnessing the birth of great heroes.  Journalists, activists, comedians, artists, dreamers and magicians;  the list merely limited by our imagination, all finally focusing on one cause, the great final battle,  galvanized ineradicably in each of our DNA.  We have been preparing for this moment for a life time.

 

In our handful of decades on Earth we have witnessed justice and injustice alike.  Some of it caused by us, other times we were on the receiving end.  We came to know what is good and what is bad, not because some absent God taught us so, but because we mastered it through blood, death and tears.

 

Time claims it fare.  As we age and wizen we also attain the intrinsic powers of Knowledge and Logic, or at least this is what is on offer, this can be your prize, the penultimate Treasures to the Final and Last. Thing is do you have the skills to use your reward, or are your eyes fixed on the dew of samsara, dissolving in the Light of the Black Sun Rising?

 

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And the seconds keep ticking away.

 

Here in the UK our Death Toll now surpasses 100, 000.  The politicians lie and look away, spurred on by the media moguls we are being forced to return to work and comply. More die by the minute as those in Power make money.

 

Sometimes I think I am going to go mad with anguish and the prevailing sense of Injustice that floods the world.  The rich are becoming outrageously richer as the poor die by the masses, exposed to the full consequences of a reality we so hard tried to plaster up and avoid. 

 

As the days pass the all encompassing shadow of death throws its veil around entire families and communities, finally stripping us of absolutely everything we love, our very children and parents, or spouses and friends.

 

The stories of tragedy and pain come in massive waves that multiply by the hour, people expose their inner most grief in order to show us that those that govern us have finally taken everything we have and are; our very lives, even our very Gods. 

 

As the rivers of misery and sorrow flow and we bare witness to the great injustices done towards our brothers and sisters another epoch has been ushered in where it becomes apparent that our God seems very un-apparent.

 

Where are you Shepard?  Great Archons of Balance and Harmony why have you abandoned Your Thrones? Or is it finally that we will find ourselves in debt to our transgressors because they have cast the dark veils of religion and superstition ablaze.  Is this the Eon where Man becomes his own Master through the murder of his very own God by his overlords?  Surely if those that murder us in plain sight go unpunished and instead their heinous acts make them very wealthy individuals that live long and prosperous lives, then where is our Justice and what have we really become? Or is it that the price to Paradise is the sacrifice of everything we ever loved and hold sacred?  What kind of sick mind would believe that? 

 

Well, slaves for one, because death is the only hope they have.  Death is the only hope WE have. But it does not have to be our own Death.   Think of that for a minute.

 

It is nearly midnight and the death toll rolls on even faster.  Outside this Millennium’s plague claims more souls. The bank accounts of the wealth swell with our ancestor’s blood money as we huddle close to our loved ones in terror and dread. All the politicians and their parents have had the prophylactic vaccines needed to protect them, now they tell us there are not enough vaccines to go around for the rest of us.

 

The Kingdom mourns its dead whilst the powerful laugh and laugh and laugh.   And here behind the Veil, watching through my dusty blinds as the wind pushes on in the winter night, I surveil Malkuth and its many woes, waiting for the time Bridegroom will awake to avenge His Beloved and Her flock.

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Then there was Fire

 

 

Dark Days

My fingers and the words that dress my thoughts abate and falter as I try to find the shape and sequence of letters that can make sense and meaning of the madness in which we live. And why endeavor to impress reality with the algorithm of my thoughts if only for the vanity and novelty of having written something about this peculiar epoch in an ocean of humanity’s predicaments.

 

We read in history that there were Pharos and Kings who built prodigious temples and titanic structures to celebrate their supposedly divine and allegedly very important existences. Once again close to the end of year 2020 there exist men who continue to do the same, who in vain invest personal and public wealth in pursuit of ever elusive and exotic pleasures as well as in combat against what they term ‘The Disease of Ageing’.  Their pursuit for glory and power has come to eclipse the every day lives of us, the ordinary people, and as we huddle together in our small homes, with our small lives, we pay for the result of the avarice and greed of those that have found a way to harvest our very life-force.

 

The lives they lead are fountains of myth, already they make plans to colonize the stars with their own seed, leaving behind a planet of slaves to battle it out for the very last time whilst the rich get to draft a brave and valiant odyssey of their own past.  Who will look back to see the bones of our ancestors and our grandchildren that lubricate the cogs of the machines that make up most of their maleficent existences?  Who will testify to the agony and pain of the war and suffering we had to claw our way out of, the cost we paid for being part of the family of the human race? Who will remember the names of our mothers and fathers, the color of our children’s eyes? Yet these are things that hold no meaning for these men that prepare to do away with our puny existences in order to seize immortality for their own and for themselves. Do not doubt for one moment that the time will come when the human race will fork once again and those who managed to amass great wealth and glory will tread on the broken backs of the remainder of humanity.   

 

I look up at the mold that lines my ceiling and watch as translucent iridescent snakes of condensation pool at the bottom of the living room window.  It is dusk on Christmas Eve and the Reaper takes on Santa’s role this year.  In Westminster our archons toast their wits at making hundreds of millions of pounds each during one of the deadliest pandemics in modern times; the faulty Personal Protection Equipment they brokered and sold our National Health Systems line their bank accounts with the blood money of doctors and nurses they sacrificed in the name of greed and profit.  We were made to send our children to schools knowing what awaited them there was certain death, perhaps if not for them then certainly for grandma or sick uncle so and so, yet we still kept sending them off, avoiding the truth, that we are all just simply fodder and grease that keeps the engines of the establishment spinning. A grotesque carousel where only the wealthy and privileged get to ride it out on the backs of the rest of us dressed up carnival mules who are only allowed to do what we are told.

 

The sky ripples in near sonorous blue, so deep it is almost obsidian.  Great shapes take hold on the veil that surrounds the stage of life on Earth.  In the heavens celestial intelligences watch as our sitcom is being played out, nothing can be done to stop the cameras once the rolling starts. Our identities have been hijacked, our lives have been cultivated and harvested, our potential buried in the dark coffers of the plutocrats as we swipe left and right and sell away our data, our ‘Super weird substance’, the most powerful ingredient in the creation of our reality. 

  

We wax and wane in our uneasy stupor, we drunkenly bark our discontent, we rattle words of ancient knowledge and howl at the dark night, and spent in our middle age, we place our heads on pillows that rob us of our dimming fires.  We fall asleep as the waters of time push us forward regardless.

 

I watch as the seconds turn into days.  The chair I sit in remains immobile whilst time dissolves all round me. I shed my thoughts and shed my thoughts again as days turn into weeks.  I cannot stop what is to come. 

 

It recently occurred to me that my consciousness is a by-product of Life, what I consider ‘me’ is in effect a stack of transient memories, changing and mutating every time I call on them to validate my thoughts. It seems to me that my consciousness is meant to be the treasure that I toil for, as I suffer and learn it evolves and grows and in return it feeds my soul. My body plays it’s role on the stage of creation and I am rewarded with knowledge for my psyche. Perhaps the scholars were right in stating that life is not the end all, but in effect a stage for our minds, like shadow play puppetry.

 

The strong find and establish ways to rob the weak of their wealth, their REAL wealth: the dew and nectar of our consciousness. Not only are we subjected to a lifetime of slavery, poverty and misery, the very jewel of our existence, our souls are also being mined by the greedy and the rich. 

 

Twice enslaved, twice confined, never to be free, always to lift the yoke of the wealthy in order that they prosper from our pain.  In our little homes, existing in our little dwellings we scratch a meager existence in order to make it through our little lives in relative comfort, avoiding the fact that we have been deceivingly and knowingly lied to.  We accept this trivial life as doctrine reality because the truth pains and eludes us.

 

Already the world is in its third wave of this virus outbreak, for all our scientific and technological innovations it seems a tiny parcel of proteins continues to claim lives.  The leaders of this world choose commerce and profit above human lives, but this time the magnitude of deceased required to support the wealthy, to support ailing companies and closing department stores is not something I think we can look away from, in fact it is reaching the point where each and every one of us on Earth has lost a loved one to COVID-19.

 

Politicians and scoundrels have made billions, some trillions, during these dark times, and I think it is safe to say that we have found ourselves in a stupor, a moronic, imbecilic state of inertia, happy to take cheap dross and glass bobbles over the truth.  Our life and the importance we stake on it has been grossly overvalued in our imagination, the truth is plain to witness, just take a stroll down your local mall.

 

We are not a happy species, our potential is not being fulfilled, we have simply become accustomed to slavery, to the point we willingly sacrifice our offspring to it.  We are delusional and have convinced ourselves that things are the way we want them.  We lie when we tell ourselves we do not crave wealth and affluence, the only reason we deceive ourselves about not coveting the wealthy is because we know without a shadow of a doubt that it is pointless, this is simply our lot.

 

The money of the wealthy is stored away in off-shore banks and swiss accounts that render it impossible to detect.  The rules we created and reinforced made this a damning eternal certainty, a fact not even wars or revolutions can shake. This division is only widening, soon only the privileged will be able to afford the technologies that save and augment health, intellect and life, the emersion of a braver new aristocracy is unavoidable by proxy of their wealth.

 

We will be vaccinated en masse and the devastation this virus brings will halt.   It seems this time round we managed to escape annihilation but the world continues to revolve and the stories it spins are only golden for it’s one per cent.  From where I stand these days look dark with approaching storms on the horizon, it seems humanity is facing another strange epoch in its growing pains.  I too am transforming in these dark days, my eyes grow wider as I watch, my breath often falters, but my heart beats like a dull ancient drum in constant time, waiting for the moment we will be called to finally face ourselves.

 

 

 

 

News of the World

Nearly 180 day after the whole world stopped in the shadows of a virus that threatened to annihilate our entire race, I sit here listening to news about the Russian Politician Alexei Navalny who was poisoned whilst on a flight from Siberia to Russia.  For those of you that do not know about this event, it follows a long line of global poisonings that the FSB have a habit of leaving behind like a twisted calling card. Mugabe’s was a bicycle spike through the urethra of his opponents, Putin likes to watch them scream as they bleed from the inside out.

 

About 6 months ago most governments around the globe imposed strict lock-downs on the movement of nearly all the worlds population in an attempt to push back a deadly wave of disease and death that is Covid-19. We nearly did it.  We nearly made it through, and then the greed and ignorance of those in power released an even bigger event of mass infections as those with money and power went on to capitalise on our misfortune.

 

Personal Protection Equipment was delayed to nursing and hospital staff, whilst the friends and families of those in power set about giving themselves government contracts in order to profit.  This resulted in undue delays and the deaths of many innocent people whose demise could have been prevented by a simple mask and gloves that fit.

 

Violence and abuse started to spark within communities. George Floyd, an innocent black man in Michigan, was suffocated to death in broad daylight whilst on lookers pleaded with the officer to stop kneeling on his neck.  George died pleading to his dead mother for help.  

 

I hate this world sometimes.

 

The story goes on.  Three days ago the body of a 16 year old Somali refugee washed up on a beach not far from where I sit right now. America is contemplating on “helping” Afghanistan again by sending in BlackRock staff.  This security firm has a habit of employing ex military staff, people who are used to shooting at other people without remorse, their men have a habit of being trigger happy, particularly when it comes to women and children.

In the meanwhile China is keeping over one million Uyghurs in work camps in order to ‘reform’ them.  Last time this happened the world was plunged into madness and darkness, this time we call it conspiracy theories as China makes our cheap shit cr-Apple phones and plastic vibrators on the low.  It seems like the bad guys got the algorithm right this time.

 

Now I watch as the tides bring forth more news of protests and violence in Belarus, which cannot seem to shake off it’s dictator, again with the support of Putin. 

 

So in the year 2020 A.D. we live in a world overrun by plutarchy and crime syndicates.  The world is headed head first into unprecedented destruction and fascism, with technology at it’s helm.  Little did the makers of Matrix and Terminator know how close they would strike to the truth.  It’s mental and there is no escape.

 

I recognise that history has taught us there is always another way.  We have ancestors that changed history through perseverance and revolution, they must be stirring in their graves now because we are headed towards no escape from the complete conquest of Evil.

 

I am not a harbinger of anything, let alone something as big as the end of life as we might imagine it, but I am tolling the bell on the beginning of millennia of corruption and degeneracy.

 

The body deceives where the mind is hijacked, our pleasures have been the stepping stones for monsters, they target our love for our children, our fears of tomorrow and our broken relationship with death in order to place themselves as masters to the beasts that we have become.

 

I reserve myself for the moment and watch as darkness descends  on man and his children....

Interregnum...

I will not start with something as heavy as  ‘finally’, as finally is such an indicative word, meant to be telling, to be absolute, although it is really not.  As a concept it  is empty and void of meaning, there is no finally, eternity will go on forever.

Instead of finally I will chose Interregnum, for the meanwhile, as the journey still continues and in between we steal moments to take time and reflect.

In the meanwhile, I make a pact, the Shell that is me, Michelle as I was appointed in my youth, here at the shores of the endless black ocean that engulfs time, with the spark that is my soul, endless, formless, individual to itself only through me, part of the Monad without.

I make a pact, the Shell and the Divine, for as long as I exist to serve you so too I deserve to know you and all that you know.  What does it matter if by result I fall from the Light of Illusion into the Twilight of Dreams?  I understand my destruction is absolutely guaranteed, preferred to a lifetime of lies.

And just like that it is settled, all that is required is that you arrive to this exact point in order to make the choice to take the blue pill and say yes to that one drop.  So mote it be.

A bit of a blur here to be honest, please do not compel me explain this anymore than I have laid it naked in my thoughts.  On we go.

A small dot, a fragment of the imagination, a blue bubble suspended in the Void.  Regard it as it spins through time and space, mesmerising and fragile as it cuts through the Milky Way, on its way to its four and one half billion year celestial date with Andromeda.  The  galactic tides turn and who knows what happens next?

And what of Gaia? What of the Billions upon billions of lives and stories lived?  All the tears and tales, tragedies and victories?  I guess it matters not much at all as to how the stars perceive us, or what the truth of our fundamental nature is, to each person that has arrived here through the bloody gates of birth there is given a spark of life to do with as she/he pleases.  I guess that’s all we will ever really have that is ours: our own lives for ourselves, superstars in our own cosmos.

In the meantime we continue to spin.

The  power and glory of this alchemical union between spark and dust is sacred and secret to each, the unveiling of the mystery ensured though life and death.  Go with it, flow, be honest to yourself but at the same time follow your heart. Often times your heart will betray you but you will be fine if you do not betray your own heart.

I guess interregnum I am done.